Friday, June 5, 2020

Feeling good



 You can't make this
        stuff up.
Am I the only freak
       in the waiting room?
walled in by wailers and whiners
          salty snot rivers,
 getting smothered by a soaked wet hot
        blanket of shame.

  When I hear a stranger bemoan a tragedy....
       bubbling with a loss so deep
they are willing to show their entire shame,
   I get to have all
 the feels, the pinata
       of loss
the licorice jelly beans and
         coffee chews of
     the crap sadness

  I can't be the solitary one
     that shrinks from
 the towering shit show
     of meat emotion

When I say that
  I am sorry
for your loss,
  what I really mean to say is..
      get the fuck away from
         me and suck it up

When you, a virtual stranger, grab
       me and wipe your nose on my
 shirt, I give you an awkward squeeze
      and say something about the almighty
 just barely keeping it on the chain

      to shove my two sword fingers
        into the spot where your lower jaw rests
           about an inch
            below your ear lobe
                   and p-u-s-h

           while you gasp, and maybe pee your
             pants a little, I say..
         Goddammit, man
             stop giving up
         your gaping asshole for the world to fuck

                    because, i say with a wise smile,
      feelings are stupid
             and should be avoided.

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